Day 7 ~ 10/07/10
So I guess I really get to look at myself today, Dakar is out of town for a couple of days. We’re not set up to Yoni Gaze via Skype or webcam, so it’s time to break out the mirror! Oh Boy…I’m not sure why I’m nervous about it, guess it’s a sign this is something I have to do! So of course, I get out the compact mirror that shows me TWO reflections at the same time! Ha ha ha!
I can tell how much I’m still living in my mind from day to day. When I started gazing myself, I was physically analyzing my yoni, how everything looked, instead of connecting to my womb and allowing any emotions to start flowing freely. I’m not going to get any deep answers if I’m not willing to go deeper than just physically looking!
I returned my focus or love and gratitude to the reflections of my yoni and what do you know? Almost immediately guilt and shame had come for a picnic. Guilt arose over past experiences of viewing photos and videos of various pornography. Seeing men and women fornicate and actually getting aroused by watching a woman’s vagina be stimulated and penetrated, by men and women.
I felt an extreme sense of shame for the whole human collective, for women unconsciously allowing themselves to be put in a position that strips them of their feminine qualities and power, to feel like they are bound to have emotionless sex, and watch as their passion for life dies off to themselves and to the world. Of course, I can only speak from pure reflection of myself, and what I feel.
I don’t believe that man bashing serves any purpose except to keep masculine and feminine separate, but I do believe men would naturally step up their respect and willingness to treat women with respect if women stopped giving in to casual or unmeaningful sex. Women stand up and take a look to see how you can transform your belief system around the sacred act of making love. If I hold myself in respect as a woman, then only a man who is consciously holding me, and himself, in respect and love will be allowed to enter.
If men and women started to work together more, so many scars of the past can be acknowledged and healed. If we keep allowing ourselves to be violated (and you know what I mean, you can feel it, can’t you? What’s right for you and what serves to scar you), then that’s what we will keep inviting in to our lives, as individuals, and as a collective. (The Living Matrix) www.thelivingmatrixmovie.com
What if all the women went on a sex strike? You can bet your boots that the men would take notice and implement some change into their lives! Not a strike because you’re too tired, or to be controlling in an egotistical way, but a conscious strike so you may know how to listen to what is good for your body and soul, and only allow this to enter you. I have met men who have listened, and have transformed themselves into a true man.
This single act alone has the potential of changing the world in such a short amount of time! Men would not have a choice to take advantage of women (and vice versa) if no women would have sex with him, unless he is coming from a respectful and honoring place. I can tell you from personal experience, the art of love making completely changes when you’re engaged in the act with a partner who is committed to love, honoring and respecting you.
This type of love making also allows the man and woman to hold a higher vibration, and if she were pregnant, she would be holding a conscious space for higher vibrating souls that could be ushered in to, teaching us, and having the potential to rapidly change and escalate the whole planet!
From a mother’s perspective, I wish for my children to hold themselves to this kind of self-integrity. I would not want to teach my son how to disrespect himself and other women he will know, and I would not want my daughter to be okay with allowing herself or a partner to disrespect her. The big thing here is that how are parents supposed to teach this kind of love and respect to their children if they don’t know it themselves? Are you willing to stop at nothing so that your children don’t suffer the same fate as you? Or are you willing to sit back and do nothing, watching your children grow up in a way that continues to produce suffering to themselves and to others?
Alright men and women (because MEN, you also have a responsibility to not let your woman feel like she must be your sex slave!!!), can you consciously go on a “sex strike” until you learn to value yourself, only letting a man in when he has consciously connected with you in a way that is honoring and loving to you, and to him? Do you even know what that means?
And, if you’re already engaged in a “sex strike” like I was, due to your personal issues, not sure what you’re doing, then learning how to take an honest look here in a compassionate, forgiving and loving way will be one of the most valuable things you could ever do for yourself. Are you worth it? Is your partner worth it? Are you and the children of the world worth it? What are you waiting for?
Whew! All of this in one yoni gazing session, this is powerful stuff!!! My lips are H.O.T. Hot Hot Hot! And my heart, I feel as if I’ve just run a marathon! I love when life and passion run through me, makes me feel like I am worth living.
Join me, get some of this for yourself if you’re not doing so already! I’ve mentioned it before, and I’m sure there are many ways of achieving therapy in this area by yourself or with a professional, and everyone has their own path so make sure you listen to yourself and do what is right for you. If it doesn’t resonate, then find something else. This is the book and teacher I’ve been working with that if you’re ready for the sugar coating to be lifted so you can get straight to the good stuff, read the book The Power of Shakti, by Padma Aon Prakasha. Pg. 91 is a wonderful chapter addressing the wounds of men in particular, while pg. 69 starts the chapter explaining how to get started with some exercises (such as Yoni Gazing) that will, if done with integrity, help get you started in moving through some of your emotional, physical, mental and spiritual scarring.
My passion for your awakened healing is like receiving a great big bear hug from the divine mother herself. I recognize this as a reflection also, seeing that deep within, I have a passion for healing myself…forgiving my judgments and moving forward with love and honor for myself, for my husband, for my children, and for the world. (Thank you Miss America)
This is how I feel when (I'm in Switzerland!) I receive a taste of the unbridled power that is Shiva/Shakti in action, freedom and the language of love. I feel like I can embrace and create anything. Having tasted this, why would I settle for anything less?
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